Thread:NaturalFreshOtter00/@comment-2081368-20181224205530/@comment-2081368-20190116175929

You know even when my mother wasn’t dying, she would want me to be more than a Gary Stu (consider myself a Gary Stu in training), otherwise... forget about it, I’m dead (2X) serious! Then she said she was lenient and easy and too fair. B-o-i-l-i-n-g w-a-t-e-r with her for little to no reason, generally. If you make her mad, that’s it. It doesn’t matter if it isn’t an accident, she would put the blame on you, and say “you should be ashamed” so many times. Just because she said she was forgiving doesn’t make it so. She thinks if I make her mad or disappointed, even if it takes self esteem damage to prevent it, she can get me incarcerated. She wouldn’t let me shake it off, remove the stress, or even relax or meditate.

You know even if she was never in such condition, she would only have a stable relationship with the “complete” Mary Sues and the ‘Stus. One time I was denied the Internet for “barely” catching the bus. Not for not catching the bus, but for catching the bus.

She thought I was capable of handling what went on, without even doing certain gestures. She got me totally wrong. She was arrogant, like my father. She admitted she was selfish.

If I cannot take it anymore, which happened so very very often, my mother would worsen the problem, and we eventually become very close to being out of a relationship. Even if I try to be nice, this is what happens. She said to me, “I hope something bad happens to you, you deserve all the bad things.” For little to no reason!